This last Thursday despite all the holiday rush, we got to take a few hours to slow down and focus on our family. Nathan and Cooper came to the doctor's office with me for our baby's 18-week ultrasound. It was a stressful morning with Cooper acting out and trying to get on Santa's naughty list, but with the afternoon full of baby video, the day was turned around for me.
Before starting the ultrasound, the tech asked whether we wanted to find out the gender. Of course! With this baby, all I really want is a healthy baby. I really didn't care either way whether we are having a boy or girl. Finding out the gender is more about being able to prepare, knowing what we need to buy, being able to figure out a name for the baby, and also be able to celebrate our little one in a more personal way. Anyway, I had thought it may be a girl, mostly because of Cooper's comments about the baby and such. So you can imagine my surprise when the tech put the wand on my lower belly, and I immediately saw feet legs, and what most certainly was not a middle finger sticking up. She said, "Oh, the baby hasn't turned around yet. It's still breech." And then I said, "Yep, and I know exactly what that is there on the screen--it's a boy!" Nate had also thought the baby may be a girl, but was ecstatic at the announcement of it being a boy. Cooper was indifferent, or more accurately, just focused on the fact that we could see the baby on the tv.
Thankfully, the rest of the ultrasound went without incident, and the baby is healthy and perfect. I recall that with Cooper, we couldn't see his left hand during the ultrasound because of the position it was in, and so for a week we worried that our baby had only one hand, until we went to a specialist for a second ultrasound. No such need this time. Our baby boy was very cooperative, except that he is breech, and was in a weird spot, so getting a picture of all the parts of his hear they wanted to see was challenging. The tech pushed the wand harder into my belly, while moving it around. It went over his face, and he grimaced. Be still my heart--I wanted to be able to hold and comfort him right then and there! Then as she backed off to try to get another angle, he reached up and started sucking his thumb, as if to comfort himself from all the prodding. That is when the tech snapped this picture. She said it's actually pretty rare to see a baby sucking its thumb during an ultrasound, and this is one of the best pictures she's ever taken of it.
I tell you, right at that moment, my love for this little boy became so full and so real.
I am amazed that at 18 weeks gestation, a baby has such strong emotions, and can self-soothe. Our little guy has already captured my heart, just as Cooper did. Suddenly my frame of mind shifted from thinking "I'm pregnant" to "We're having a baby boy!"
Another memorable moment from that doctor visit was when the doctor came in the room, and asked Cooper whether he was excited to have a baby brother. He replied, "Yeah, but Santa is coming to my house soon, and it's Christmas time, and we get to open presents!!" Sorry, baby brother, your news is trumped by presents in this child's mind. At this point, Cooper is still calling the baby his baby sister, and when I tell him it's a brother, not a sister, he pauses and then says something like, "No, it's baby cheese!" He does love the baby, and will hug my belly, or whisper, "I love you, Baby Cheese" at my belly.
Nate was so excited it was a boy, that late that night after driving our dog to the kennel to stay for a few days, he stopped at the store and purchased a baby gift for me, showing up at home at 11:30 pm with a blue gift bag. He purchased a cute little summer t-shirt and shorts for the baby to celebrate the addition to our family. It was so sweet, and a great ending to the day.
On another note: I'm ready for this baby to turn. With him being breech, when he has soccer practice like he does every night about 10 pm, he pummels my bladder with his little kicks. We were driving in the car the other night, and it was like he was drumming on my bladder, NOT a great sensation, and it also made us have to stop almost immediately for me to have a potty break. So this little guy likes to kick and punch just like his older brother. I think they're going to get along, and can already imagine them wrestling with Daddy on the floor. Yay for boys!


























